Within the past few months, I’ve started doing some manifestation work through Free + Native. I’ve been following them on Instagram for a while and was feeling very called to this work in August. I started by listening to every podcast Lacy, the creator, had been on. Free + Native has a few “Unblocked” programs, including Reparent and Shadow. I began with the former, and have since started the latter. While this all might initially sound “woo-woo,” I love it because this methodology is based in psychology, neuroscience, and a little spirituality. And recently I have had a couple major realizations.
As a creative entrepreneur (I guess I’m one?), I’ve heard a lot of opposing advice. On podcasts and in articles, a fair amount of people suggest putting your hands in a lot of pies. However, others say pick one thing and put all of your energy into it. Meanwhile I’m sitting over here wondering where’s the happy medium? Why does it have to be one way or the other? How can I have both? Here’s how: setting priorities.
Imposter syndrome. It doesn’t matter what you’ve accomplished or how qualified you are, you feel incompetent, insecure, and fearful of being exposed as a fraud. Who hasn’t felt this way? I’ve had conversations in yoga trainings, in art school, and with friends over coffee, and at some point, we have all identified as an imposter. I think it’s inevitable to feel that way in any creative or unconventional field. But can we overcome it?
I won’t lie to you all, last week I was feeling very anxious. My doctor was concerned about my blood test from the week before so I went back in for another round. The longest 36 hours later I got my new results and everything looked better. She just recommended I take a multivitamin – totally doable and a huge relief. However, I’ve been having trouble shaking the residual anxiety and obsessive thoughts. When I get like this, I focus on the simple things that bring me happiness.
I have been slowly, slowly trying to move towards minimalism (towards being the key word there). The first step was getting rid of unused stuff, which I spent months doing. Now my focus is on being a more mindful, conscious shopper. There are a lot of ways to do that. I hope to expand on this topic in future posts, but today let’s look at just one – acknowledging what we want vs. what we need.
This past weekend I went away to NYC to visit a dear college friend. I left Friday and returned Monday so I knew I wanted to only pack a carry-on bag. And then I realized I don’t think I’ve ever packed carry-on only. I got a little anxious just thinking about the liquids. Late at night, I was laying in bed 5 days before I left going through my mental list of what I needed to bring.
If you are anything like me, you have a hard time saying “no.” I’m a people pleaser. Over the years, I have said “yes” to so many things I wouldn’t necessarily have chosen to do on my own, but I wanted to be helpful. It’s a good trait to have as long as you don’t say yes to everyone else except yourself.
Over the weekend, The New York Times published an article entitled, “Why Yoga Pants Are Bad for Women.” As a yoga teacher, of course it piqued my interest. I clicked on it thinking maybe there was some scientific information I needed to know about the pants I wear every day. However, once I started reading it, I quickly realized that is not what I was going to get.