I won’t lie to you all, last week I was feeling very anxious. My doctor was concerned about my blood test from the week before so I went back in for another round. The longest 36 hours later I got my new results and everything looked better. She just recommended I take a multivitamin – totally doable and a huge relief. However, I’ve been having trouble shaking the residual anxiety and obsessive thoughts. When I get like this, I focus on the simple things that bring me happiness.
There is something about Spring that brings out the worst in my mental health. For many, it’s because of allergies that leave you with a foggy head. Just the other day CNN posted an article about the relationship between allergies and depression. However, for me, it’s the sight of seeing everything around me grow that leaves me feeling like I’m the only one who isn’t progressing.
The weather has been very unpredictable lately. One day it feels like Fall, the next it feels like Winter has come early, but then a couple days later it goes back to the autumnal warmth. I’ve been thinking and speaking about transition lately, and it now feels like we’re in the thick of it. What season is it? Do I need a sweater or a coat? Are my energy levels high or low? Do I feel like staying bundled up inside under a blanket or frolicking amongst the fallen leaves? Each day feels so different and I have to reevaluate where I stand.
While Autumn is not here yet, it is definitely in the air. And every time I start to feel the shift of seasons, I am ready for a clear out. Over the past week, I’ve been sorting out my desk, clearing unloved books from my shelves, and ditching the clothes that no longer fit or aren’t worn enough. Truthfully I’m not the cleanest person, but when I get in these moods, I am all in.