Over the past two years, I have had to make a couple potentially life-changing decisions. At the very beginning of 2015, I made the decision to try teaching yoga full time. And last year I made the decision to embark on my 300-hour teacher training. I was terrified to try both, but I am so glad I did.
I have been lucky that these decisions have worked out very well for me. Now that I’m teaching yoga, I can’t imagine doing anything else. I love being in charge of my own business. I have had amazing students enter my life. I get to be creative everyday, and I’ve discovered that I’ve always been meant to teach. It’s fun, it’s enriching, and the level of trust between student and teacher is powerful.
Deciding to do another training has also been an amazing experience. Yoga has become more exciting than ever. I’ve met inspiring people and every time I go out, I still can’t believe I get to train under Noah and Rocky. I can see myself growing as a teacher and I’m embracing being a student.
While I don’t like making decisions, both of these were actually pretty easy, but there was a lot of fear I had to work through. What if it didn’t work out? What if I ended up worse off than I already was? What would I do when I failed? Despite my brain going into overdrive and imagining every possible outcome, I knew in my heart that I would do it anyway. Despite my fear, I knew I was going to try teaching full time. I knew entering the training was the right choice even though I wasn’t sure I was physically ready. But because of these decisions, I am happier and happier everyday. This isn’t where I imagined I would be in life back in high school or college, but now that I’m here I can’t imagine being anywhere else – surrounded by yoga and inspiring people, and feeling fulfilled with my work.
That said, I know I have another big leap of faith coming my way. This situation is a bit different, but there is still a lot of fear involved. But let me just say it – I want to move back to LA. Every time I go back for training, I don’t want to leave. I’m not sure if it’s nostalgia from growing up there, or if it really is the perfect city for me, but I’m okay with it either way. I easily glide into a routine when I’m there, even on the days before and after training where I’m just hanging out. I feel alive, inspired, refreshed. I know it’s where I want to live, but the thought of giving up my current life in Atlanta is terrifying.
I love the studios I teach at and the communities I belong to. I get to teach yoga every day, but I also got most of these positions from friends and people I know. I know some people in LA, but I doubt it will be as easy as it was here when I was first starting. Yet, I know it’s where I need to be.
So, for those of you that are also thinking about taking a leap of faith, here’s what I’m going to do and hopefully it helps you too. Making the decision is the hardest part, but you need to do it. I’ve made mine, so my next stage is telling people. This might sound odd, but I believe that when we say something out loud, it’s more likely to happen and become true. By telling others, I also have people to hold me accountable for following through. I’ve been slowly telling people in my life, but now I’ve basically announced it on the internet, so it must be true, right?
Next comes planning. When I started teaching full-time, I found another temporary source of income that had enough flexibility in scheduling that I could teach when the opportunity struck. Before signing up for training, I talked to my parents about finances and we figured out a way for it to work. I also received a scholarship from Noah and Tracy, which I am forever grateful for. Because of their generosity, I’ve been able to have an experience that I know will influence the rest of my life. Now that I know I want to move, my plan is to save, save, save! Honestly, I’m not doing the best job at the moment from dental procedures, to prescriptions, to taxes, and travel expenses, I’m barely breaking even, but hopefully things will calm down in the next few months and I’ll be able to save a lot more.
There are a many other loose ends I need to figure out, but I’ve given myself a rough deadline. I find this step incredibly important, because if I don’t give myself a time limit, then it can stay a dream forever and not become reality. Ideally, I would love to be there within a year, but I’m giving myself no later than the end of 2018 to get there. Who knows, maybe because of this post something amazing and miraculous will happen and everything will get figured out, but in the meantime, I’ll be here dreaming and planning my future full of yoga, creativity, happiness, and sunshine.
To those of you also in the midst of making a big decision, I wish you the best of luck. We can do this!